Well,my friends, the time has come for us to finally say goodbye to a year that was,to say the least,a garbage one for most,if not all of us.
I know for me it was quite challenging from having to adjust to a new way of living and not being able to see friends or family or even talk to them sometimes has been nothing short of difficult. In my nearly 39 years of existence I can safely say I have never felt or been this lonely before. As a result of having little companionship in my life I have been in therapy a lot this year,but with the best people helping me with this, I feel like I am handling things better than I would’ve had they not been there for me. I encourage everyone who is having a hard time with handling this pandemic and the times we’re in to seek help in any way you can. There’s zero shame in doing so and they may be the guiding light you need in the darkest of times.
I should mention that I am in no way all the way better. I still have times where I get worried about if things will ever get better and back to the way they were and the vast uncertainties we have in our world. Furthermore, I get lonely pretty often and as much as I wish I could do something about it,I have to live with the fact that this is how life is going to be and that a lot of times the ball is in someone else’s court.
I will say one thing that truly disappointed me most of all this year,and it has nothing to do with any travel plans I had canceled or anything that didn’t take place, but with people who were and are so reluctant to do the right thing in a time where all of us really need to. Never in my life have I seen people throw fits because they have to wear a mask or think (insert thing here) is a hoax or whatever the case may be,and it really sucks because it’s because of them that we’re not getting any better with this crisis and why we can’t have the better things in life we love most back. I hate that I am doing everything I can to make this bearable for everyone and not everyone is playing ball. Don’t get me wrong, our elected officials haven’t been stellar in handling this,either,and this stretches across party lines, but it’s everyone who refuses to do the right thing that draw my biggest ire.
Now, I often bill myself as the King of Wishful Thinking,and for 2021 I am often going to be that. Why? Because there’s so much for us to wish for that we are and have been missing that it’s almost necessary to do. Not to mention that this year set the bar so low for the new year to be successful that we’ve got one direction to go in,and that’s up!
I have so many things I want to happen for these next 12 months and while it’s going to be a challenge to see every last thing through, I am persistent in that. Let’s start with what I know will happen: I know that my car will be paid off and that I will get the title for it, I know that this is the last year of my 30s, and I know that I am going to be comfortably employed at a job and an office I enjoy a great deal. And now for those things I want to see happen: I want to see myself back at The Happiest Place on Earth at a place that I and so many others love and miss every day. I want to get on a plane for the first time in 14 years. I want to see friends and family again,but in more close settings and not all at once. I want to see us return to a society again where we concentrate on doing what’s right and what’s necessary instead of dragging our feet to the right decisions and responsibilities we have.
Those are just a few things I have in mind.
Lastly I want to say that I know that it’s been a rough year for all of us,but I do know that we’re going to be okay as long as we have our own way of wishful thinking. Be wishful, be hopeful, and be okay with yourself even if things don’t happen right away, eventually they will happen. Oh,and wear a mask,damnit!